December Love - Robert Hichens
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CHAPTER VI
Miss Van Tuyn was in Garstin's studio on that day. Although apparently
calm and self-possessed she was in a condition of acute nervous
excitement. Craven's mention of Glebe Place through the telephone had
startled her. At once she had understood. People had begun to gossip,
and the gossip had reached Craven's ears. She had reddened as she stood
by the telephone. A definite sensation of anxiety mingled with shame
had crept in her. But it had been succeeded by a decisive feeling more
really characteristic of her. As Craven now evidently knew of her close
acquaintance with Arabian the two men should meet. She would conquer her
reluctance, and put Arabian to the test with Craven. For a long time she
had wished to know what Craven would think of Arabian; for a long time,
too, she had been afraid to know. But now she would hesitate no more.
Dick Garstin was to have a sitting from Arabian on the Monday afternoon.
It ought to be over about half-past four. She could easily manage to
prolong matters in the studio till five, so that Craven might have time
to get to Glebe Place from the Foreign Office. Of course, he might not
choose to come. But if he were really jealous she thought he would come.
Now she was anticipating the coming interview with an uneasiness which
she could only conceal by a strong effort.
At last, after repeated failures, Garstin was beginning to work with
energy and real satisfaction. Of late he had been almost venomous. His
impotence to do what he wished to do had made him more disagreeable,
more brutal even than usual. His habitual brusqueness had often
degenerated into downright rudeness. But suddenly a change had come, one
of those mysterious changes in the mood and powers of an artist which
neither he nor anyone else can understand. Abruptly the force which had
abandoned him had returned.
The change had occurred on the day of Miss Van Tuyn's conversation
through the telephone with Craven, a Friday.
Arabian had refused to sit on the Saturday and Sunday. He said he was
moving into his Chelsea flat, and had many things to do. He could not
come to the studio again till the Monday afternoon at half-past two.
Garstin had been furious, but he had been met by a will apparently as
inflexible as his own.
"I am sorry, but I cannot help it, Dick Garstin," Arabian had said.
And after a pause he had added:
"I hope I have not shown impatience all this long time?"
Garstin had cursed, but he had not persisted. Evidently he had realized
that persistence would be useless. On the Monday he had received Arabian
with frigid hauteur, but soon he had become intent on his work and had
apparently forgotten his grievance.
Half-past four struck--then the quarter to five. Garstin had been
painting for more than two hours. Now he put down his brush and frowned,
still looking at Arabian, who was sitting in an easy, almost casual
position, with his magnificent brown throat and shoulders exposed.
"Finished!" he said in his loud bass voice.
Miss Van Tuyn, who was curled up on a divan in a corner of the studio,
moved and put down a book which she had been pretending to read. Garstin
had forbidden her to come near to him that day while he was painting.
"Finished!" she exclaimed. "Do you mean--"
"No, damn it, I don't!" said Garstin, with exasperation. "I don't! Do
you take me for a magician, or what? I have finished for to-day! Now
then!"
He began to move the easel. Miss Van Tuyn got up, and Arabian, without
saying a word, stretched himself, looked at her steadily for a moment,
then pulled up his silk vest and carefully buttoned it with his
strong-looking fingers. Then he too got up, and went away to the
dressing-room to put on his shirt, waistcoat, collar and tie.
"May I see, Dick?" asked Miss Van Tuyn.
"No, you mayn't."
"Are you satisfied?"
"He's coming out more as I want him this time."
"Do you think you have found his secret?"
"Or yours, eh? What is happening in you, my girl?"
Before she could answer a telephone bell rang below.
"Damn!" said Garstin, going towards the staircase.
Before he went down he turned round and said:
"You're travelling fast."
And he disappeared. She heard him below tramping to the telephone. Then
she went to a small square window in the studio, pushed it open, and
looked out. There was a tiny space of garden below. She saw a plane
tree shivering in the wind, yellow leaves on the rain-sodden ground. A
sparrow flitted by and perched on the grimy coping of a low wall. And
she shivered like the plane tree.
"Beryl!"
She started, turned, and went to the head of the stairs.
"What is it?"
"The telephone's for you. Come along down!"
"Coming!" she answered.
"Who is it?" she said, as she saw him standing by the telephone with the
receiver in his hand.
"Some old woman, by the voice. She says she must speak to you.
Here--take it, my girl!"
"It must be old Fanny!" said Miss Van Tuyn, with a touch of irritation.
"Nobody else would know I was here. But I stupidly told Fanny."
She took the receiver out of his hand.
"I'm here! Who is it? Do make haste. I'm in a hurry."
She was thinking of Craven. It was nearly five o'clock, and she did not
want to be late in Glebe Place, though she dreaded the encounter she
expected there.
"Oh, Beryl, there's bad news!"
"Bad news! What news?"
"I can't tell you like this."
"Nonsense! Tell me at once!"
"I can't! I simply cannot. Oh, my dear, get into a taxi and come back at
once."
"I insist on your telling me what is the matter!" said Miss Van Tuyn
sharply.
Her nerves were already on edge, and something in the sound of the voice
through the telephone frightened her.
"Tell me at once what it is! Now speak plainly!"
There was a pause; then the agitated voice said:
"A cable has come from the Bahamas."
"The Bahamas! Well? Well?"
"Your poor father has--"
The voice failed.
"Oh, do tell me! For Heaven's sake, what is it?"
"Your poor father is dead. Oh, Beryl!"
Miss Van Tuyn stood quite still for a moment.
"My father--dead!" she thought.
She felt surprised. She felt shocked. But she was not conscious of
any real sorrow. She very seldom saw her father. Since he had married
again--he had married a woman with whom he was very much in love--his
strongly independent daughter had faded into the background of his life.
Beryl had not set her eyes upon him during the last eighteen months. It
was impossible that she could miss him much, a father with whom she had
spent for years so little of her time. She knew that she would not miss
him. Yet she had had a shock. After an instant she said:
"Thank you, Fanny. I shall be home very soon. Of course, I shall leave
the studio at once. Good-bye."
She hung up the receiver and went upstairs slowly. And as she went she
resolved not to say anything about what had happened to Dick Garstin.
He was incapable of expressing conventional sympathy, and would probably
say something bizarre which would jar on her nerves if she told him.
She found the two men standing together in the studio. Arabian had on
his overcoat and gloves, and was holding his hat and umbrella.
"It was only Fanny Cronin!" she said.
As she spoke she looked narrowly at Garstin. Could Fanny have told him
the news? The casual expression on his face set her mind at ease on that
point. She was certain that he knew nothing.
"I must go," she said.
"I will walk with you to a taxi if you kindly allow me," said Arabian,
getting her fur coat.
"Thank you!"
As he stood behind her helping her to get into the coat she was
conscious of a strange and terrible feeling of fear mingled with an
intense desire to give herself up to the power in this man. Was Craven
outside? Something in her hoped, almost prayed, that he might be. It was
surely the part of her that was afraid.
"Good-bye, Dick!" she said in an offhand voice.
"Good-bye!" he said. "Take care of her, Arabian."
She sent him a look full of intense and hostile inquiry. He met it with
a half-amused smile.
"I shall do better now," he said.
"Ah?" said Arabian, looking polite and imperturbable.
"Come along!" said Miss Van Tuyn. "It must be getting late."
As she spoke a clock in the room began striking five. For a moment
she felt confused and almost ill. Her brain seemed too full of rushing
thoughts for its holding capacity. Her head throbbed. Her legs felt
weak.
"Anything the matter?" asked Garstin, gazing at her with keen attention
and curiosity.
"No," she said coldly. "Good-bye."
And she went down the stairs followed by Arabian.
Garstin did not accompany them. He had gone to stand before his picture
of Arabian.
Miss Van Tuyn opened the door. A soft gust of wind blew some small rain
into her face.
"Let me hold my umbrella over you, please," said Arabian. "Do take my
arm while we look for a taxi."
"No, no!"
She walked on.
"There is nothing the matter, I hope?"
"I had some bad news through the telephone."
She felt impelled to say this to him, though she had said nothing to
Garstin. Her brain still felt horribly overcharged, and an impulse had
come to her to seek instant relief.
"My father is dead," she added.
As she spoke she looked up at him, and she saw a sharp quiver distort
his lips for an instant.
"Did you know him?" she exclaimed, standing still.
"I? Indeed no! Why should you suppose so?"
"I thought--I don't know!"
He was now looking so calm, so earnestly sympathetic, that she almost
believed that her eyes had played her a trick and that his face had not
changed at her news.
"I'm not normal to-day," she thought.
"I am deeply grieved, deeply. Please accept from me my most full
sympathy."
"Thank you. I scarcely ever saw my father, but naturally this news has
upset me. He died in the Bahamas."
"How very sad! So far away!"
"Yes."
They were still standing together, and he was holding his umbrella over
her head and gazing down at her earnestly, when Craven turned the corner
of the road and came up to them. Miss Van Tuyn flushed. Although she
had asked Craven to come, she felt startled when she saw him, and her
confusion of mind increased. She did not feel competent to deal with the
situation which she had deliberately brought about. Craven had come upon
them too suddenly. She had somehow not expected him just at that moment,
when she and Arabian were standing still. Before she was able to recover
her normal self-possession, Craven had taken off his hat to her and gone
rapidly past them. She had just time to see the grim line of his lips
and the hard, searching glance he sent to her companion. Arabian, she
noticed, looked after him, and she saw that, while he looked, his
large eyes lost all their melting gentleness. They had a cruel, almost
menacing expression in them, and they were horribly intelligent at that
moment.
"What does this man not know?" she thought.
He might have little, or no, ordinary learning, but she was positive
that he had an almost appallingly intimate knowledge of many chapters in
the dark books of life.
"Shall we--?" said Arabian.
And they walked on slowly together.
"May I make a suggestion, Miss Van Tuyn," he said gently.
"What is it?"
"My little flat is close by, in Rose Tree Gardens. It is not quite
arranged, but tea will be ready. Let me please offer you a cup of tea
and a cigarette. There is a taxi!"
He made a signal with his left hand.
"We will keep it at the door, so that you may at once leave when you
feel refreshed. You have had this bad shock. You need a moment to
recover."
The cab stopped beside them.
"No, I must really go home," she said, with an attempt at determination.
"Of course! But please let me have the privilege. You have told me
first of all of your grief. This is real friendship. Let me then be also
friendly, and help you to recover yourself."
"But really I must--"
"Four, Rose Tree Gardens! You know them?"
"Yes, sir."
"Good!"
The taxi glided away from the kerb.
And Miss Van Tuyn made no further protest. She had a strange feeling
just then that her will had abandoned her. Fanny Cronin's message must
have had an imperious effect upon her. Yet she still felt no real sorrow
at her father's death. She seemed to be enveloped in something which
made mental activity difficult, indeed almost impossible.
When the cab stopped, she said:
"I can only stay five minutes."
"Certainly! Dear Mademoiselle Cronin will expect you. Please wait for
the lady!"
Miss Van Tuyn was vaguely glad to hear him say that to the chauffeur.
She got out and looked upwards. She saw a big block of flats towering up
in front of her.
"On the other side they face the river Thames," said Arabian. "All my
windows except three look out that way. We will go up in the elevator."
They passed through a handsome hall and stepped into the lift, which
carried them up to the fourth floor of the building. Arabian put a
latch-key into a polished mahogany door with a big letter M in brass
nailed to it.
"Please!" he said, standing back for Miss Van Tuyn to pass in.
But she hesitated. She saw a pretty little hall, a bunch of roses in a
vase on a Chippendale table, two or three closed doors. She was aware
of a very faint and pleasant odour, like the odour of flowers not roses,
and guessed that someone had been burning some perfume in the flat.
There was certainly nothing repellent in this temporary home of Arabian.
Yet she felt with a painful strength that she had better go away without
entering it. While she paused, but before she had said anything, she
heard a quiet step, and a thin man of about thirty with a very dark
narrow face and light, grey eyes appeared.
"Please bring tea for two at once," said Arabian in Spanish.
"Yes, sir, in a moment," said the man, also in Spanish.
Miss Van Tuyn stepped in, and the door was gently shut behind her by
Arabian's manservant.
Arabian opened the second door on the left of the hall.
"This is my little salon," he said. "May I--"
"No, thank you. I'll keep on my coat. I must go home in a minute. I
shall have a good deal to do. Really I oughtn't to be here at all. If
anyone--after such news--"
She looked at Arabian. She had just had news of the death of her father,
and she had come out to tea with this man. Was she crazy?
"I don't know why I came!" she said bluntly, angrily almost.
"Do please sit down," he said, pushing forward a large arm-chair. "If
these curtains were not drawn we could see the river Thames from here.
It is a fine view."
He bent down and poked the fire, then stood beside it, looking down at
her as she sat in the chair.
She glanced round the room. It was well furnished and contained two or
three good pieces, but there was nothing in it which showed personality,
a thoughtful guiding mind and taste; there was nothing in it even which
marked it definitely as the home of a woman rather than a man, or vice
versa.
"I rent it furnished," said Arabian, evidently guessing her thought.
"Are you here for long?"
"I do not quite know. That depends."
His large eyes were fixed upon her as he said this, and she longed to
ask him what intentions he had with regard to her. He had never made
love to her. He had never even been what is sometimes called "foolish"
with her. Not a word to which she could object had ever come from his
lips. By no action had he ever claimed anything from her. And yet she
felt that in some way he was governing her, was imposing his will on
her. Certainly he had once followed her in the street. But on that
occasion he had not known who she was. Now, as he gazed at her, she felt
certain that he had formed some definite project with regard to her, and
meant to carry it out at whatever cost. Garstin said he, Arabian, was in
love with her. Probably he was. But if he was in love with her, why
did he never hint at it when they were alone together except by the
expression in his eyes? She asked herself why she was afraid of him,
and the answer she seemed to get was that his reticence frightened her.
There was something in his continued inaction which alarmed her. It was
a silence of conduct which lay like a weight upon her. She felt it now
as he stared at her.
"What do you want with me?"
That was what she longed, and yet was afraid, to say to him. Did he know
how violently she was attracted by him and how fiercely he sometimes
repelled her? No doubt he did. No doubt he knew that at times she
believed him to be horrible, suspected him of nameless things, of
abominable relationships; no doubt he knew that she was degradingly
jealous of him. When his eyes were thus fixed upon her she felt that he
knew everything that was going on in her with which he had to do. Yet he
never spoke of his knowledge.
His reserve almost terrified her. That was the truth.
The dark man with the light eyes brought in tea on a large sliver tray.
She began to drink it hastily.
"You--forgive me for asking--you will not leave London because of this
sad news?" said Arabian.
"Do you mean for America?"
"Yes."
Miss Van Tuyn had not thought of such a possibility till he alluded
to it. She could not, of course, be at her father's funeral. That was
impossible. But suddenly it occurred to her that she had no doubt come
into a very large fortune. There might be business to do. She might have
to cross the Atlantic. At the thought of this possibility her sense of
confusion and almost of mental blackness increased, and yet she realized
more vividly than before the death of her father.
"I don't know. I don't think so. No, thank you. I won't smoke. I must
go. I ought never to have come after receiving such news."
She stood up. He took her hand. His was warm and strong, and a great
deal of her personality seemed to her to be in its clasp--too much
indeed. His body fascinated hers, made her realize in a startling way
that the coldness of which some men had complained had either been
overcome by something that could burn and be consumed, or perhaps had
never existed.
"You will not go to America without telling me?" he said.
"No, no. Of course not."
"You told me first of your sorrow!"
"Why--why did I?" she thought, wondering.
"And you did not tell Dick Garstin."
"No."
"And you came here to me."
"No, no! With you!"
"To my rooms in spite of your grief. We are friends from to-night."
"To-night . . . but it is afternoon!"
He still had her hand in his. She felt, or fancied she felt, a pulse
beating in his hand. It gave her a sense of terrible intimacy with him,
as if she were close to the very sources of his being. And yet she knew
nothing about him.
"It gets dark so early now," he said.
Dark! As he said it she thought, "That's his word! That's his word!"
Everyone has his word, and dark was Arabian's.
"Good-bye!" she said.
"I will take you down."
Quietly and very naturally, he let her hand go. And at once she had a
sensation of being out in the cold.
They went down together in the lift. Just as they left it, and were in
the hall, a woman whom Miss Van Tuyn knew slightly, a Mrs. Birchington,
an intimate of the Ackroyde and Lady Wrackley set, met them coming from
the entrance.
"Oh, Miss Van Tuyn!" she said, stopping.
She held out her hand, looking from Miss Van Tuyn to Arabian.
"How are you?"
Her light eyes were searching and inquisitive. She had an evening paper
in her hand.
"I--I am so grieved," she added, again looking at Arabian.
"Mr. Arabian--Mrs. Birchington!" Miss Van Tuyn felt obliged to say.
Mrs. Birchington and Arabian bowed.
"Grieved!" said Miss Van Tuyn.
"Yes. I have just seen the sad news about your father in the paper."
Miss Van Tuyn realized at once that she was caught, unless she lied. But
she did not choose to lie before Arabian. Something--her pride of a free
American girl, perhaps--forbade that. And she only said:
"Thank you for your sympathy. Good-bye."
"Good-bye!"
Mrs. Birchington bowed again to Arabian, swept him with her sharp
inquisitive eyes, and stepped into the lift.
"She lives here," he said, "in the apartment opposite to mine."
As Miss Van Tuyn drove away towards Claridge's she wondered whether
Arabian was glad because of that fortuitous meeting.
Because of it her close intimacy with him--it would certainly now be
called, and thought of, as that--would very soon be public property.
All those women would hear about it. How crazy she had been to visit
Arabian's flat at such a moment! She was angry with herself, and yet she
believed that in like circumstances she would do the same thing again.
Her power of will had deserted her, or this man, Arabian, had the power
to inhibit her will. And Craven? What could he be thinking about her?
She knew he was a sensitive man. What must he be thinking? That she had
asked him to come all the way to Glebe Place merely in order that he
might see her in deep conversation with another man. And she had not
even spoken to him. He would be furious. She remembered his face. He was
furious. By what she had done she had certainly alienated Craven.
And her father was dead!
She leaned back in the darkness of the cab, feeling weak and miserable,
almost terrified. Surely Fate had her in a tight grip. She remembered
Arabian's question: would it be necessary for her to go to America? Her
father was very rich. She was his only child. He must certainly have
left her a great deal of his money, for his second wife was wealthy and
would not need it. There might be business to do which would necessitate
her presence in New York. At that moment she almost wished for an urgent
summons from the New World. A few hours in a train, the crossing of a
gang-plank, the hoot of a siren, and she would be free from all
these complications! The sea would lie between her and Arabian--Adela
Sellingworth--Craven. She would stay away for months. She would not come
back at all.
But this man, Arabian, would he let her go without a word, without doing
something? Would his strange and horrible reserve last till her ship was
at sea? She could not believe it. If she made up her mind to sail, and
he knew it, he would speak, act. Something would happen. There would be
some revelation of character, of intention. She was sure of it. Arabian
was a man who could wait--but not for ever.
She still seemed to feel the pulse beating in his warm hand as she drove
through the rain and the darkness.
PART SIX
CHAPTER I
Mrs. Ackroyde had a pretty little house in Upper Grosvenor Street,
but she spent a good deal of her time in a country house which she had
bought at Coombe close to London. She was always there from Saturday to
Monday, when she was not paying visits or abroad, and Coombe Hall, as
her place was called, was a rallying ground for members of the "old
guard." Invariably guests came down on the Sunday to lunch and tea.
Bridge was the great attraction for some. For others there were lawn
tennis and golf. And often there was good music. For Mrs. Ackroyde was
an excellent musician as well as an ardent card-player.
Lady Sellingworth had occasionally been to Coombe Hall, but for several
years now she had ceased from going there. She did not care to show her
white hair and lined face in Mrs. Ackroyde's rooms, which were always
thronged with women she knew too well and with men who had ceased from
admiring her. And she was no longer deeply interested in the gossip of a
world in which formerly she had been one of the ruling spirits. She was,
therefore, rather surprised at receiving a note from Mrs. Ackroyde
soon after her return from Geneva urging her to motor to Coombe on the
following Sunday for lunch.
"I suppose there will be the usual crowd," Mrs. Ackroyde wrote. "And
I've asked Alick Craven and two or three who don't often come. What do
you think of Beryl Van Tuyn's transformation into an heiress? I hear
she's come into over three million dollars. I suppose she'll be more
unconventional than ever now. Minnie Birchington met her just after
her father's death, in fact the very day his death was announced in
the papers. She'd just been to tea with a marvellously good-looking
man called something Arabian, who has taken a flat in Rose Tree Gardens
opposite to Minnie's. Evidently this is the newest way of going into
deep mourning."
Lady Sellingworth hesitated for some time before answering this note.
Probably, indeed almost certainly, she would have refused the invitation
but for the last three sentences about Beryl Van Tuyn. She did not want
to see the girl again, for she could not help hating her. She had,
of course, sent a note of sympathy to Claridge's, and had received an
affectionate reply, which she had torn up and burnt after reading it.
But she had not gone to tell her regret at this death to Beryl, and
Beryl had expressed no wish to see her.
In her heart Lady Sellingworth hated humbug, and she knew, of course,
that any pretence of real friendship between Beryl and her would be
humbug in an acute form. She might in the future sometimes have to
pretend, but she was resolved not to rush upon insincerity. If Beryl
sought her out again she would play her part of friend gallantly to
conceal her wounds. But she would certainly not seek out Beryl.